My life is changing rapidly and all the hard work I have put forth is starting to show as I am slowly regaining the things that I once lost. I can say life has humbled me and I am grateful for the people that have crossed my path helping me better myself as a person. I used to be alone in this or at least that is the way I felt for a long time but now I can see the people by my side supporting me and giving me guidance to get back on my feet. It has been humiliating to become honest with people and explain to them the destructive life I once lead. I remember just dreaming about the things I want to accomplish and I had a vision that no one could see but now I am going the path to work for those things. I will soon be a full time student and making a big transition in my life. I am grateful for the bad experiences and even though that sounds insane it was within my darkest hours that I learned what is important in this life. Some people learn the easy way but unfortunately I have always been hard headed. Rebuilding what was torn has been a huge challenge and the humility that follows this process is something I will always keep with me. I don’t think I am a success story but I can hold my head up and be proud of myself for the things I have already accomplished. I wake up every day and remind myself why I continue down this path. It has been difficult for me to stay focused as everyday along the way the temptation of the past is lurking around every corner. I try to contain my anger towards these things but at this point my opinion of the situation is you will never reach your destination if you stop and throw rocks at every dog that barks at you. It’s tempting but I have to remind myself is this going to help me achieve my goals or is this going to hurt me in the long run. At this point in my life I have nothing to prove to anyone anymore and I don’t seek the approval of who I am from people that are intolerant of the path I lead. The people that matter to me are the ones I focus my time and energy at this point in my life. It’s difficult to stand against adversity but it has been something I have gotten used to at this point. I read a lot about great leaders and how they faced adversity and accomplished the things they set out to do. I have found that people that can face adversity and still accomplish their goals are people worth remembering. It’s what you do in the face of adversity and how you carry yourself is what’s most important. I used to be embarrassed for the things I struggled with as unless you have walked through the shoes that I have you can never imagine how hard that path may be.
My time were I am currently am coming to a close and soon the next chapter of my life will be beginning. I have gained a lot from going through this experience and it has shaped me into the person I am now. I look back at where I started from and it reminds me of the pain I have had to endure to get to where I am at now. One thing I never lost was my faith that I could be standing were I am at now. Through all of it I never lost my faith even more so when it seemed as if the world was against me at some points. My faith is the one thing that kept me pushing forward and has delivered to the place I am at now. Keeping faith that everything is going to fall into place is difficult and jumping into the darkness was the hardest part of the journey I am on. I couldn’t see the things I have now because I was fearful of the steps I had to take to regain these things. It’s almost as if you are bungee jumping off of a high bridge. How do you know if the rope is going to hold you and not break? It’s difficult but it was one of the best decisions I have made in my life. I stand tall and keep it pushing forward and I am grateful for the experiences I have gained.
My time were I am currently am coming to a close and soon the next chapter of my life will be beginning. I have gained a lot from going through this experience and it has shaped me into the person I am now. I look back at where I started from and it reminds me of the pain I have had to endure to get to where I am at now. One thing I never lost was my faith that I could be standing were I am at now. Through all of it I never lost my faith even more so when it seemed as if the world was against me at some points. My faith is the one thing that kept me pushing forward and has delivered to the place I am at now. Keeping faith that everything is going to fall into place is difficult and jumping into the darkness was the hardest part of the journey I am on. I couldn’t see the things I have now because I was fearful of the steps I had to take to regain these things. It’s almost as if you are bungee jumping off of a high bridge. How do you know if the rope is going to hold you and not break? It’s difficult but it was one of the best decisions I have made in my life. I stand tall and keep it pushing forward and I am grateful for the experiences I have gained.