I write a lot about change and my changes that I have made in my life. I only hope that someday I can look back at my thoughts and it will be a reminder of what I am trying to overcome. I look up to the great leaders we see and I ask myself what was it that they had that made them different from all the rest. I have found something amongst all of them that stands out the most. That is the ability to overcome adversity and failures. It seems the greatest of champions have this unique ability to rise about the adversity and the perseverance to continue the fight towards their goals or objectives. I look at my life and seek the strength to overcome my own adversity and rise above my own obstacles in life. I don’t think I compare to the people I look up to but I envy there dedication they have to achieving the things in life that I want.
I have almost overcome the struggles in which I used to see no end to. It seems shortly ago I was alone and literally battling for my life. Depression and anger had such a grip on my life that I couldn’t see myself coming out of it. I fought everyday with these issues and the only relief I had was the one thing that was slowly killing me. I have learned new skills to cope with the problems we as combat veterans face. It’s a cold world I have learned and just because you are a good person doesn’t mean people will be good to you. This world chewed me up and spit me out and I can’t even describe the shame that would overcome me as I found myself in a hospital once again. People snickering and laughing at things they will never be able to comprehend. I used to struggle with what others would say and I don’t think anyone wants to be out casted. Others might say they don’t care what others think of them but personally I did care. I was so focused on what others thought and said I lost focus on myself and my life. Just because someone thinks you are a failure doesn’t mean you have to think you are a failure. I have failed more than I would like to admit and I remember isolating myself as I did not even want to show my face to the world. I would get caught up in this self-pity and I didn’t see myself moving forward after falling down once again. This changed as I have learned what is important in this life. It doesn’t matter what others think, what matters is what you think of yourself. I remember pulling myself out of isolation I am describing to you and dusting myself off. I would remind myself of why I still continue to move forward and I would envision the things I want to accomplish. It’s a great feeling personally to get back on my feet. I made some decisions six months ago and I haven’t looked back. I have not fallen in a while and even though I am out of the darkness that haunted my life I do not become compliant. I have to remind myself Dailey of the feelings of shame that I once had as my past motivate me to fight harder to overcome the things I have faced. People ask me what was it that made me continue down the path I lead and my reply is simple. I don’t know if I am going to make it but I have faith that I will.
Having faith is something that is very crucial to overcoming anything in this life. It’s throwing yourself blindly into the darkness and even though you might not be able to see the light you have faith that it is coming. Six months ago I did just exactly that and I cannot be more proud of my decision. It’s been a tough road to get to where I am at now and I am proud to say that my life is changing rapidly for the better. I have been informally accepted into an educational program that I used to always talk about but never seen myself actually falling through with it. It’s the small things in life that gives you hope to continuing what you started. It’s faith that things will get better that gave me the courage to continuing to fight through the darkest hours of my life. Things present day are not as gloomy as now I strive to help others to continue to fight through their own darkness. This chapter of my life will soon be behind me and I will be on my way to achieving the things that I only dream of today. I will never forget the memories that I have had to live through over the past couple of years because it was in my darkest hours in life that I learned my best life lessons. I have learned what keeping it real truly means and the ones beside me at my lowest will be the ones with me at my highest. I used to be alone and it seemed the whole world was against me but now I have built a solid support system and I can pick up my phone and reach out to people that truly care about me. Some say that I am an inspiration and even though personally I don’t agree it is something that I am still trying to get used to. It really is simple just don’t give up no matter how gloomy things look and what others might say don’t give up.
I have almost overcome the struggles in which I used to see no end to. It seems shortly ago I was alone and literally battling for my life. Depression and anger had such a grip on my life that I couldn’t see myself coming out of it. I fought everyday with these issues and the only relief I had was the one thing that was slowly killing me. I have learned new skills to cope with the problems we as combat veterans face. It’s a cold world I have learned and just because you are a good person doesn’t mean people will be good to you. This world chewed me up and spit me out and I can’t even describe the shame that would overcome me as I found myself in a hospital once again. People snickering and laughing at things they will never be able to comprehend. I used to struggle with what others would say and I don’t think anyone wants to be out casted. Others might say they don’t care what others think of them but personally I did care. I was so focused on what others thought and said I lost focus on myself and my life. Just because someone thinks you are a failure doesn’t mean you have to think you are a failure. I have failed more than I would like to admit and I remember isolating myself as I did not even want to show my face to the world. I would get caught up in this self-pity and I didn’t see myself moving forward after falling down once again. This changed as I have learned what is important in this life. It doesn’t matter what others think, what matters is what you think of yourself. I remember pulling myself out of isolation I am describing to you and dusting myself off. I would remind myself of why I still continue to move forward and I would envision the things I want to accomplish. It’s a great feeling personally to get back on my feet. I made some decisions six months ago and I haven’t looked back. I have not fallen in a while and even though I am out of the darkness that haunted my life I do not become compliant. I have to remind myself Dailey of the feelings of shame that I once had as my past motivate me to fight harder to overcome the things I have faced. People ask me what was it that made me continue down the path I lead and my reply is simple. I don’t know if I am going to make it but I have faith that I will.
Having faith is something that is very crucial to overcoming anything in this life. It’s throwing yourself blindly into the darkness and even though you might not be able to see the light you have faith that it is coming. Six months ago I did just exactly that and I cannot be more proud of my decision. It’s been a tough road to get to where I am at now and I am proud to say that my life is changing rapidly for the better. I have been informally accepted into an educational program that I used to always talk about but never seen myself actually falling through with it. It’s the small things in life that gives you hope to continuing what you started. It’s faith that things will get better that gave me the courage to continuing to fight through the darkest hours of my life. Things present day are not as gloomy as now I strive to help others to continue to fight through their own darkness. This chapter of my life will soon be behind me and I will be on my way to achieving the things that I only dream of today. I will never forget the memories that I have had to live through over the past couple of years because it was in my darkest hours in life that I learned my best life lessons. I have learned what keeping it real truly means and the ones beside me at my lowest will be the ones with me at my highest. I used to be alone and it seemed the whole world was against me but now I have built a solid support system and I can pick up my phone and reach out to people that truly care about me. Some say that I am an inspiration and even though personally I don’t agree it is something that I am still trying to get used to. It really is simple just don’t give up no matter how gloomy things look and what others might say don’t give up.